tonight the light is on

here are some things i made one time,

one time... one time long ago i used to be this person, that made things.

i used to make all kinds of things, they'd just come out like poop falls out yer butt... but i learned that as you get older, things dont just happen anymore. sorry to be gross, but come on people. you are aging, right now.

in any case, i used to sewing up storms of wallets and bags, full of tentacles and dinosaurs and bubbles and zombies.

i used to write so many songs and just sing um out like sneezing

i used to be happy

i used to be fat

i used to dream about traveling

i used to dream about falling in love

i used to be younger than most people around me

i used to be too young to do anything

somethings haven't changed, some things have been completely abolished.

and some things are just different.

tonight there is a significant change. a lot of things that change in life happen so slowly that you never notice until your ass is hanging past your knees.

but tonight, the light is on.

this means of course, that i am up, in my bed doing creative things, (typing, blogging, talking, writing) by myself. The difference is that my partner isn't here. He's asleep in his beautiful new apartment. we house warmed with cider tonight. and then i went home to my lonely bed, my huge lonely bed. have you ever slept in a king size all by yourself? it is an amazing experience that never gets old. of course there is something to be said about sleeping in a king size with the person you love. its entirely awesome in different ways. like how amazing chocolate is to caramel or vanilla. or ice cream to waterslides. or the first day of school to the last. exciting in different ways. so this is good. this is neat. this is different and strange and...

we'll see what comes out of it.

THIS WEEK:

1. Tommy's Birthday on Wednesday

2. Blonde Rednead in Nashville!! (also on wednesday)

3. my first Dentist appt in years, 2:15 Monday

4. Cutting out wallets

5. Distributing zines

6. YMCA

7. Practicing in a new space

8. Designing new business cards and

9. talk of a website?!

**10. Booking the Memphibians at the Pilot Light**

** if i could only get one thing done this week, i would wish you have this done**

EPIC PLANNING!

hey, I was thinking of going to wordpress... how do you guys feel about this? anything?

but that is besides the point... this map is for illustrating my EPIC PLANNING!!

I shall begin an epic journey next may for 3/3 reasons:

1. Self Discovery/Independence

2. Documentation/Collection

3. Adventure/Music

This tour will circumnavigate the entire country, hopefully accumulating the entire west into my collection... what collection you say? If you do not know I have a 48 state goal, to play a show in every state... but the collecting goes much farther than this yes, much farther indeed.

On this trip I will begin tangible collection, of each city... a soil sample if you will, contained in a small glass vial. BWA HA HA HA HA!

Here is a breakdown of my first draft:

PART I!!

From Knoxville to Carls Bad Caverns... the main obstacle... Texas. so I am currently researching cities. Places to play, bands to play with and venues for my wallets and zines.

Part I begins with Pensacola, my old home, and the surrounding cities.

Part I ends with several state parks including the grand canyon, white sands nation monument, the petrified forest, joshua tree national and finally a visit to my father's hometown of Mexicali.

THIS ENDS PART I!!

PART II!!!

Part 2 takes me up the coast to where the majority of my family lives around the Bay area, from here I hope to steal my oldest friend Amanda from Fremont and take her north... NORTH I SAY! Up to Eureka, up to the Redwoods UP UP UP all the way to Vancouver.

This concludes part 2:

PART III!!!

Part 3 consists of winding and wandering through the northwest, though the unknown and forgotten parts and states, where large cities are few and far between. I mean, who knows anything about Idaho, Montana, Wyoming... Utah... i dont... BUT I WILL!!

Part three ends when i reach colorado where I will tour the many cities for a couple weeks until i reach my ultimate destination... the ecological laboratory where i spent a summer when i was 20... I still have dreams about this place and i hope to get a job for a month in the surrounding area and just be there awhile. explore. discover, think about the next step... which will ultimatly be...

PART IV!

my triumphant return to Knoxville to work the next football season. Climb out of the debt i will no doubtedly accumulate and start again. Maybe this time i will be ready for a big girl job... but if not, i will have a shitty van that will probably need much repair.

now... to find the van.

love u

-Renee

fwiends

these are some of my friends in knoxville

making friends in a new town is really hard, but the best thing to do is get a job, or go to school... or join a church if you're into that kind of thing.

i got a job, somewhere I could go... a safe place in a strange town where i knew no one... preferably a place with alcohol. when i had a job at starbucks i liked to hang out there too... but seriously, how long can you drink coffee? you got to be like, on your computer studying/working or something. you can just, sit there with a frappuccino for hours on end can you? you'd be a creepy freaky.

so here are some of my friends... and a nice booby pic of me too.

That's nickie next to me (Dylan's sister), i like her a lot.

Above that is Danielle, i like her a lot too... Dylan is her boyfriend (first pic)... and in between is Karmin... Nickie's girlfriend, Danielle's cousin, and her friend... Ham

this is Sean. he's a cook. this is his birthday party. who knew that beer pong could be so artistic?

CARTOONS!!!

I've been drawing a lot more lately, AND I acquired a scanner for to share them with people.

yes.... this is just panel 1/8 of "Chips & Diane" ... more to come

Artist Bio

Here is the new Disc Face of Tennessee, i like it a lot.


This morning I was working on getting all my shit together, (which my renewed sense of purpose from the night before tucked under my arm)... I managed to get my digital distribution a paperwork/files for Big Rig Records a Digital Distributor out of Australia... neat huh?

Anyways, below is the artist bio I sent them... I'm looking for some feedback. Lemme know if its too egotistical, or the least bit grammatical, (here's hoping). Does it make sense? I not good at writing thingy.

Renee Arozqueta bloomed from a seaside city on the gulf coast of Florida and like a dandelion seed she eventually sailed away. To the South, to the North and eventually she would go west.

Her first couple of albums fall under the umbrella of folk singer-songwriter. With the release of her double disc “No Sorrow Tomorrow/Lullagoodbyes” in 2008 she began incorporating ambient and environmental influences into the recording process. With a Volvo full of CDs she started to tour the eastern half of the United States, and continues to work her way westward until all 48 states have been “collected.”

In 2009 she joined forces with Chad Bishop, another Pensacola musician. Bishop’s previous bands include, Flat Broke Folk, The Cripple Lilies, Paper Scissors Rocketpack and most recently Spider + Octopus, which the two would tour under. (Renee as the octopus and Bishop as the spider).

As the years and mileage accumulate, Renee continues to grow in new directions with her albums, with new instruments, (accordion, drums, piano, guitar, ukulele, upright bass, singing saw) and new sounds both in the fore and background giving the new songs a different kind of depth while maintaining a style of minimalism. “Tennessee” released in September 2010, takes the idea of environmental sounds from the previous release into the bedroom. “Tennessee” was recorded within a hundred year old house in Knoxville. All of the elements that would normally be eliminated in a sound proof recording studio; dogs barking, mothers chattering, air and dust and sometimes emotion, are all in the mix, making the tracks more like windows than songs.

Currently, (2010), Renee continues to record and play in Knoxville, both as a solo project and with Spider + Octopus. A cross country tour is in the works for 2011.

Alright now onto the other things on the to-do LIst...

1. Clean my office... yea, that'll happen someday...

2. practice

3. find a dentist... its like finding your keys in a haystack!

4. fix bike

5. find a scanner on craigs list

6. Work at 4:30... poop... I know that'll get done.

heart

sometimes

sometimes i get lucky, and sometimes the dogs bark from the moment i pull into the carport, call my friend in Pensacola, walk thought the door, until i stick my hand in their mouth...


but tonight i got lucky.
1am... i snuck in... undetected.... the secret is... increasingly normal sounds. if I can get the door open... and creep in the kitchen.. AND get the light on... I'm free to eat pickles, almonds and fruit snacks for a bit. if I can do all that with out them going beserk i can sneak into the bedroom, past the sleeping chad and get the computer.... get into the bathroom and type to my hearts content. ...

by the time you read this, the sound alarm will be reset and i will have to sneak some more to get back into bed.

tonight i went out with some of my lady friends... who i call (ladiae)... friends. to calhoun's for drinks and talking about stuff. but calhoun's closes at 10!! so i was off to the pilot light, hoping to get myself and some far away friends booked for the october and december dates. how was I to know there was a PRIME parking spot right in front... like... band parking only... canadian noise band parking only. after perfectly parallel parking...(which is bey0ond Renee's normal operating capacity) I made my way into the Pilot Light


I wasn't planning on staying, my friends were all congregating at a bar next door... but I never made it. because you see... the noise band had cassettes for sale... so... i had to stay. and buy a couple... and then listen to the band. which was amazing.

amazing
...


amazin.

both bands were actually pretty fantastico.


FAKE BLOOD... followed by AIDS WOLF.

just wow.

thus renewing my sense of purpose in the world. lets hope I get up early enough to take advantage of such a sense.

sigh.

Is it possible?

regardless of what it is... it is possible.

hair brained schemes... all of them were possible.

but will i make it happen?



-more to come

<3 obsessed